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The night before your birth I remember feeling sad for Daddy and me. For nearly nine years it had been just the two of us. We were a team--Jon & Heather--and I knew things would never be the same once you came into our world. Our collective priority would be you, instead of each other. Our whole adult lives had been about the two of us, so it was scary to think about someone else jumping into our lives and potentially mucking up the works. 
Of course I was right...things haven't been the same. They are so much better. Our adoration for you adds to our little family; it doesn't take anything away from the couple we were. Saturday mornings are just as sweet at 0600 with you snuggled between us watching a cartoon. I love Daddy more because I see how much you love him. And I need his support more because you are so exhausting! I wish I had known that becoming Daddy & Mommy wouldn't mean the end of Jon & Heather. I wouldn't have been so sad on May 27, 2007.
Today was our last day alone together--just Mommy & Jason--before your little brother arrives. We went to the park, had a special lunch at Friendly's, engaged in a marathon arts & crafts session, and ate cereal for dinner. Sounds pretty mundane I suppose, but those little activities have been our world for nearly three years. I found myself feeling weepy all day because, once again, I know life is about to change forever, and life is pretty damn perfect right now. 
So for the next few days I'm going to remember my own experience. Becoming Mommy to your brother won't make me less of a Mommy to you, it will make me a better Mommy, just like having you made me a better (if considerably less patient) wife to Daddy. You seem to know this already, by the way, and harbor no ambivalence about your soon-to-be big brotherhood. You can't wait! Neither can I :)
The night before your birth I remember feeling sad for Daddy and me. For nearly nine years it had been just the two of us. We were a team--Jon & Heather--and I knew things would never be the same once you came into our world. Our collective priority would be you, instead of each other. Our whole adult lives had been about the two of us, so it was scary to think about someone else jumping into our lives and potentially mucking up the works. 
Of course I was right...things haven't been the same. They are so much better. Our adoration for you adds to our little family; it doesn't take anything away from the couple we were. Saturday mornings are just as sweet at 0600 with you snuggled between us watching a cartoon. I love Daddy more because I see how much you love him. And I need his support more because you are so exhausting! I wish I had known that becoming Daddy & Mommy wouldn't mean the end of Jon & Heather. I wouldn't have been so sad on May 27, 2007.
Today was our last day alone together--just Mommy & Jason--before your little brother arrives. We went to the park, had a special lunch at Friendly's, engaged in a marathon arts & crafts session, and ate cereal for dinner. Sounds pretty mundane I suppose, but those little activities have been our world for nearly three years. I found myself feeling weepy all day because, once again, I know life is about to change forever, and life is pretty damn perfect right now. 
So for the next few days I'm going to remember my own experience. Becoming Mommy to your brother won't make me less of a Mommy to you, it will make me a better Mommy, just like having you made me a better (if considerably less patient) wife to Daddy. You seem to know this already, by the way, and harbor no ambivalence about your soon-to-be big brotherhood. You can't wait! Neither can I :)
this is soooooo cuuuute! what a wonderful idea:) i will be following to see your family grow!
ReplyDeleteI happened to stumble across your blog and just am amazed at how well you described becoming a Mommy. I am the Mom to two boys (20 months apart) and I remember those feeling of fear of the unknown. How would our marriage change, how would my older son deal with my younger son, the list went on and on. :) Well put and congrats on your new little one!
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